{"id":1090,"date":"2023-06-29T21:44:24","date_gmt":"2023-06-29T21:44:24","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/liveplayrun.com\/?p=1090"},"modified":"2023-06-29T21:44:28","modified_gmt":"2023-06-29T21:44:28","slug":"stop-and-take-inventory-on-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/liveplayrun.com\/?p=1090","title":{"rendered":"Stop…and take inventory on life"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I\u2019ve missed writing! I was thinking this morning how much I enjoy reading and writing now! I definitely don\u2019t remember thinking and feeling that way back in high school AP English!!! \ud83d\ude02<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Much and not much has transpired over these last few months. I believe my last post was about having surgery to remove my 18 year old breast implants. (Check that post out here<\/a>.) Good news- I have recovered well and am back to doing all the things! I feel better than ever and am grateful I had that done and am feeling back to 100% me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019ve been back to running consistently now for nearly 6 weeks now and did a 5k last weekend. I\u2019m so happy to be back at it and even signed up for a half-marathon in November!\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Power for Purple 5k<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m also lifting 3x\/week and that feels amazing to be getting stronger. Muscle is where it\u2019s at baby! \ud83d\udcaa\ud83c\udffb<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have been having big thoughts and big goals again around fitness \u2013 running in particular and am so excited about the future! I am going to do this! \ud83e\udd2f<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Now to get a bit real. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have been working on creating a business and essentially have one \u2013 an LLC, a website\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But I have to admit I\u2019m questioning this path and what I\u2019m doing. I believe I have a message to share but also balancing that with what I want personally.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019ve been doing an amazing course that has helped me more than just about anything I have ever done, including therapy. I thought I had done a lot of personal development and had \u201carrived.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Boy I was wrong.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m learning even more that\u2019s a good thing! I\u2019ve learned a lot in just 6 weeks about myself in this course. (BTW it\u2019s called Radical Happiness with my amazing friend, Dr. Tarryn MacCarthy -look her up here<\/a>.) Seriously, click the link!!!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Through this course a big thing I\u2019m learning and practicing that has helped me as a dentist is regulating my nervous system. And managing my energy. I feel calmer throughout the day practicing and don\u2019t leave as exhausted as I had been. Hurray!!! \ud83e\udd73 I really did not think that was possible. And a big part of why I was looking into having a business to leave or practice very little.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I\u2019ve realized I nearly constantly seek to achieve and have been driven by external praise and recognition. Obviously this has gotten me this far in life but I\u2019m at the point I\u2019m over it. And, I\u2019m tired (of it). I see it in the entrepreneur world I\u2019ve entered into and I don\u2019t like it. I don\u2019t want to be a part of that anymore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Basically it\u2019s just taking my bad habit patterns into a new career! \ud83d\ude02<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sadly, I think that may be part of why I sought after this whole \u201cbusiness\u201d \u2013 thing.\u00a0 The fact I was unhappy in dentistry looking for something else was the biggest driver and now that I am happier practicing dentistry it\u2019s just not making as much sense to me. I love my days off dentisting and wouldn\u2019t want to work more than the 3 days I do. I also don\u2019t want to be working much on the days I\u2019m not dentisting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I enjoy so many other things. Doing many other things, hobbies, activities\u2026.and I\u2019m learning to rest and relax! Finally after 43+ years!!! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

And, even enjoy it! Savor it!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A few weeks ago it was getting to be where I felt like I was working most of the time and\/or felt like I should<\/em> be working. Sure I know I can do it but I\u2019ve learned that I need and want my rest and downtime!\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019ve gotten to see inside the world of entrepreneurism a bit and yes it\u2019s hard, yes I know I could do it, but do I<\/em> want to do it?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

To help answer that I\u2019m taking a step back \u2013 taking more time for me \u2013 to slow down \u2013 to rest \u2013 to be outside \u2013 to just be<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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View from time in the hammock!<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n

Once I took all of the pressure off a couple of weeks ago I felt a HUGE relief!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I felt calmer, more at ease, and happy. \ud83d\ude0a<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And maybe it\u2019s a matter of not doing it at all right now and more slowly or in bits and pieces. Some things I\u2019ve been doing I enjoy and some I do not. Some are just not me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The point was to do something I enjoy. Not add more stressful work I don\u2019t enjoy! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Most of us don\u2019t do that nearly enough. That is stop, and take inventory of our life. Then when we finally take a moment and pause we may think how in the world did I get here?! And realize we aren\u2019t even living our own life. Or a life we want to live.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

For me I\u2019ve come to realize I am worthy as I am.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am worthy as I am.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don\u2019t have to always be doing, be achieving, be accomplishing, striving, making money.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I mean what is the point if not to feel good, living in calm and ease and joy! That\u2019s what I want!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I think I\u2019ve often gotten my worth from what I\u2019ve done and achieved. Again, that has gotten me this far in life but I don\u2019t have to keep on going and living with this mentality.<\/p>\n\n\n

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Cliffs of Moher<\/figcaption>\n<\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

And I\u2019m not.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oh yes, and after our trip to Ireland (!) I\u2019ve been bit by the travel bug again! I cannot wait for more adventures to come!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

As I said above I have big goals and dreams, particularly on the running front. It is a balance between the achieving and just be-ing. A big part of that is in enjoying the journey itself. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I used to think many of the things I do are selfish. I\u2019m sure some think they are. However, I had the thought the other day in yoga that if everyone did these same things \u2013 taking time for themselves, to take care of their bodies and minds \u2013 what a different world we would be living in!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

People would be calmer, happier<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2026so it\u2019s not selfish and maybe what I\u2019m doing doesn\u2019t change the world, make lots of money, and maybe I decide to have or not to have a business, but I\u2019m living MY life to it\u2019s fullest and in my own authenticity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And that will have an impact.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n

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